My older brother is getting really serious with his girlfriend. We used to spend the entire weekend together, the family joked we were as thick as thieves. My friends are dating guys but I was never really interested in anyone other than my brother. I am starting to think that I might be jealous of his girlfriend, not only is she stealing his time away from me, but what else is he doing with her? Does he wrap his arms around her when they watch a movie together? Does he hold her when she's feeling blue? Does he kiss her soft and sweet like he does to me? Is he having sex with her?
I've had these tormenting thoughts for a long time and I used to be ashamed about them, but I'm not ashamed anymore. I'm in love with him and I've got to know if he's in love with me too. I'm not the mousy-type that plans to prove a boy's love by throwing her handkerchief on the floor hoping he picks it up. I'm a cat and he's MY mouse. I will have him, my brother will be mine. I will look for the soonest opportunity and seize him.